Mar10th 2013

L-O-V-E
What the hell is that
Is it love, when you're happy to be with him?
Or when you miss to see his face?

L-O-V-E 
Should it be confessed?
Or can we keep it for our self?
I think, I choose the second one.

I'm (still) in love with him.
Feeling in love really gives hope, although it hasn't expressed yet.
I used to think, it's so stupid to loving someone, but he never know it or even realize it. 
But now I feel the happiness of hoping my beloved person to reach his dream.
Praying for him will be enough. Knowing that he's happy makes me happy.
I don't put a pity on myself though. I don't feel heart broken. 
Well somehow I get used to it. I can enjoy this feeling.
I'm contented. Knowing I put my love and his future in His hand makes me feel at ease.

Mar10th 2013
I'm glad, I'm falling in love you.

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When I'm in this state of mind,

I remember this

and share it with my Dad 

by doing this

and saying this.

keeping this priorities 

and remembering this 

because of this reason

PS: The pictures don't belong to me. 

Last Night's Prayer

This song is my prayer last night. It's actually a song from Amy Winehouse "Someone to watch over me". I listened this version first, but then i goggled the Ella Fitzgerald's version. It's slower. I think, I like Amy's version more.

May God listen to my prayer. 

There's a saying old, says that love is blind
Still we're often told, "seek and ye shall find"
So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind

Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet
He's the big affair I cannot forget
Only man I ever think of with regret

I'd like to add his initial to my monogram
Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There's a somebody I'm longin' to see
I hope that he, turns out to be
Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I know I could, always be good
To one who'll watch over me

Although he may not be the man some
Girls think of as handsome
To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed
Follow my lead, oh, how I need
Someone to watch over me

Someone to watch over me

God's Answer

God really listens my prayers and my wishes.
1. God takes care my family and friends

Most of my friends are sick and get a flu. Nevertheless, we can still feel healthy despite the not good weather, because it's windy warm, but it rains suddenly.

 2. Yola passed the entrance exam got accepted in Studienkolleg in I guess, Hannover.

 3. All my students can take part the German Exam, Fit in Deutsch 1 and 2, B1 and B2. Bacause of my mistakes, I missed

4. Names, because I overlooked them. I got panic, because it will be a pity, because they already prepare themselves for over than 6 months. But the worry is now over. It was decided this afternoon, that they can join the test on March, the 13th.

5. Yanti accepted a guy's love confession.

During almost two weeks she prayed, whether she accept him as her boyfriend, or not.

There are still other wishes, that I think, they are not fulfilled yet. Well man never feel satisfied. Man keep wishing for other new things. Or it's not for us, because God thinks, we deserve better or He still prepares us  or me mentally and spiritually for the dreams.

I guess, that's the thing, that I want to trust.

LENT 2013

In 5 Days we'll face the Ash Wednesday, that means it's the beginning of the lent season.
Here are my things, that I try my best to be done this year.

What should I do in the season of lent 2013?

Hope I can get through this period well, so that I have a better relationship with Him. 

Well I hope, I can live my dreams. Just like my favorite singer, Enya dreams like a new star shining bright. Dreams help us to survive and let us hope. 

Just like Indonesian stand up-comedian, Ernest Prakasa once wrote in his blog, that we do have like others do. So there are no reasons for us not reach our dreams. We must stand up and run!

A New Year, A New You

Is it really that simple? 

It's already the fifth of January. Five days almost pass by. 

Did something change in my life? I don't thing so. I don't feel the NEW me. Well I must say, that i enjoyed 2012. I had great times with myself, my family and my friends. At the end of the year I felt grateful for things that happened in my life, not only happy, sad, boring but even confusing times 
But inside my heart or my head, I don't know for sure, which part of me, keeps asking, how I m going my life this year. Because I know with my own experience with all the new year's resolution, it's not going to work. At least for me. In the next few weeks I'll forget them. 
That's why I decided to keep doing things, that I (must) like and enjoy 

1) keeping in touch with the loved ones and keep doing things together with

    and for them

2) spending my time alone and remembering all things that just happened

3) doing small things with a smile (tidying my "chaotic" room, cleaning dishes,

    cooking, ...

4) listening to music, while looking at the beautiful sky full of clouds or stars 

    and listening to the rain often

5) taking a walk more often / doing Sport :(

6) ... (i don't know, but soon i'll find out someday. I'll still have 360 days 

    ahead)

7) keep trying to do thing 1 to 6 again and again

I just hope, I can have a great life in this 2013. And then I can find out, at the end of this year, i realize, how i change, i become a new me. (I keep my finger crossed!)

Changes can't just happen overnight. So i must be loyal and disciplined doing those 7 things. I believe, life (I will read it God) will guide us, show us the way. I don't know, how my life will be tomorrow next week, next month. Will my life go like as i plan it now or not?

At the end of year 2012, someone said this, what St. Augustine once said: 

"Entrust the past to God's mercy, 

the present to His love, 

and the future to His providence." 

And Dee (Dewi Lestari), in her book, Madre wrote:

" Hidup telah menunjukkan dengan caranya sendiri

bahwa aku senantiasa dipandu.

Tak perlu tahu ke mana ini semua berakhir.

Bagiku, itulah keajaiban yang kucari ... "

Dear Life, 

Please surprise us! Challenge us! Let us new things from you! 
Come what may. In the end we'll find our self better, the new us. I hope, my life this year will be a great journey and in the end i can say to myself, like Constantine P. Cavafy  in his poem Ithaca once wrote: 

"So wise you have become, of some experience" 

May God bless and guide us all.