Dreams...

Last night I cried a lot. When I think about it right now, why ... I can't tell myself the reason. I really had a good cry. It made me really feel better, although my eyes hurt a little bit this morning.

If we really live really like a pilgrim, how should I run my life. I must say, I'm not a confident person. I often think, that others really have a great life. I often don't feel grateful for things I have in my life. 

Tonight I found a really a motivating website, which help me out, that I can actually find my dreams, what I and my soul really want to do in my pilgrimage in this world. The website is mylife.holstee. There are many confessions from many people about their life, that I'll keep reading them. They help me seeing things in my life differently or at least positively. Here is the poster, that helps changing people. 

Inspiring poster from Mylife Holstee

And then I read an article from academy award winner, Ang Lee, a famous director from A Life of Pi, Crouching Tiger Hidden Tiger, and others films. Ang Lee: A Never-Ending Dream. It's really touching, made me cry. It really proves me, everyone struggles and fight for his dreams. I'm not alone. The feeling of leaving behinds hurts me a lot. It's really a great night, tonight is. 

I am a pilgrim, who try to look for what purpose of my life, why I am in this world.

Hopefully I will find it out in my dreams tonight. :-)

And the mother nature will let me know and let me recognize its signs.

Writing for you

Every night i sit down in front of computer and think about something, I want to write for my self.  Writing soothes me. Actually I began writing, since a couple days ago, not a long time, right. I read a quote from Dewi Lestari's book "Madre", that writing can be a medicine. And it's true. And so far it works like a charm, good for me. It helps me releasing my stress and expressing my thoughts. It's so nice knowing that I pay attention to myself, to something inside of me. Some part of me become happy or maybe I feel relieved, that they are now heard. I pay attention to them. 

Writing helps me thinking and realizing that I'm still alive right now and had the chance to meet my beloved ones today. It makes me feel grateful. How my life tomorrow no one knows. Like Enya said, we, people are pilgrims, who take their journey in this world. How it's going to end is not the mission, not the destination is the main thing, but the journey. Every day i'm going to find, who I really am. And I hope, writing will help me through this "I know, i'ts gonna be hard" journey to get to know me better and to know the reason, why i was born. It definitely take a long time. At the end, that's what everyone look for for the rest of his life. 

Enya - Pilgrim

May our journey in this world be wonderful. 

May God guide and bless us all.